every beat of my heart

Friday, May 26, 2006 @11:05 AM

I'm very tired at work. Mentally tired..

Each time I step into the office, I feel tired. I don't know how long I can hold on like this. I really don't know.

Now she's trying her best to outdo me. It's not like I'm stressed over it. It's just that, the pressure she's putting on me? Like, my boss won't know the 'back scenes', the only thing she'll see is the results at the end of each month. EM takes the 'initiative' to go get more certificate applications to do, just for the sake of 'because I wanna issue more than Char'.

Many of you would say maybe I'm too sensitive or sth, but I'm the one in the situation and I think I know it best? In the past, she'll just sit there and play her Neopets (ya, a 25 year old obsessed with Neopets) after her work (work that the boss would give each morning). Now, wow, she becomes damn hardworking and starts taking the 'initiative' to do more work!

And amusingly, she always stops just after the mark, 'more than Char'.

Why, I wonder.

One day if I blow up, I wonder what I'll say man. The only thing I can think of now is, "Your life is such a joke. You know what's a joke?" And walk away.

I can't stand it. What can I do? I have like 10 over weeks more with her? God... take her away. Just do it. Pleaseeeeeee. Change my department, company, change her away, whatever! I just don't wanna see her!!!

I've never felt so strongly (in a bad way) about someone before. I think it's because I face her everyday. I think when school starts, I'll feel happier.

At least I know Min won't do this to me. Min... I miss you, darling... =(((
At least I know Woody won't irritate me...
I wonder how's Alex.
I wonder how's Arthur.

=(((((((((( I miss miss miss, EVERYONE!!! =((((((((((

Next,

Alright, photos from the East Coast Park with Woody.
(At least something I'm happy doing now, blogging and looking at my photos.)

I was eating my dumpling at United Square. Too hungry, can't wait. lol..

Some photos while waiting for the cab to bring us to ECP, took so long to come lor..
6th pic, I was trying to take myself. He went to spoil it. Tsk.
8th pic, so uncle style. hahah! He just got bored of waiting.

1) In the cab. 2) Reached ECP! Happy boy.

1) Me. Nothing much. 2) A pic together while sitting there!

In the cab, going back..

Some identical stuff we have. heh. Our stainless steel rings!
Well, we figured that this won't tarnish, so it's a good investment. Better than always changing a new one. Accumulates more cost in the end. hee.

Next,
Went for CG yesterday. Stayed over at Joce's place, sudden decision. heh. Thus, I got myself this name, 'Charlene Adam Lee'. - because I was weird to stay over at such a weird timing. haha. Woody said so. Idiot.

We slept quite early, I had work the next morning (today). haha.

CG was not too bad. The three girls went back sooo early! blehx. No fun. =((( Uh huh! Now I know! Skunk's left knee can hit! -smack!-

Bad news at night. I guess it'll soon be 'reversed'. =)

i was flipping though that drawer of mine. i realised it was me, who lacked in the big alphabet 'E'.
but i realised only now.

30 days more till the day i can see my tolerance for 'that' kinda thing. i shall put a smile on my face, if i still can. hahah.

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