I got my period! Dang. And I'm damn sway.
I felt a constant cramp at my lower abdomen, then I felt funny down there. hahaha. I asked my colleague to bring the milk tea I was making back to my desk for me, while I went to the toilet.
GOSH! It came!!!! I have no sanitary pads or even my life saver - panadols! SIAN.
While running out, I slipped over water and NEARLY fell. I went out to seek for my pad. lol. Fortunately, BY had one. hahah! I hope my cramps doesn't kill me today. Argh. Ok, that's not the end of the story.
I went back to my desk. I was eating biscuits. I'd normally soak my biscuits in my tea, so they'll be soggy. hahha. I know I'm weird, but I'm sure there are others who eat biscuits like that!
This time round, my biscuit got too soggy. While I was trying to put it in my mouth, it broke apart from the still hardened part and dropped in my tea! Wa lau. All the tea splashed out, ON MY SKIRT. sian.
Ok, nvm. I took a napkin, tried to tidy the spots. I needed some plain water, so I used my water bottle. While pouring the water, I spilled quite a lot on my chair. -.-
I wonder what's gonna happen next. hahah. I know my post is kinda boring, just like my mood. Bahhh. No wonder I felt like crying last night. I won't cry the whole month (I mean I still cry when I'm sad lar!), but when my period comes, I'll cry the night before. Even for the slightest thing. heehee.
I'm quite (okok! very lar, can?)nasty when I'm having my PMS. hee. And I eat a lot! =D Oh ya, I'm constipated everyday. I only shit like once in two or three days? But when my period comes, woah, it cures by itself! =DDD I feel quite shiok though. I like the feeling after you shit. hahah. I mean, I feel clean and 'empty'. hahah!
Eat a lot + Shit a lot + get nasty + get agitated easily + get emotional + wants to cry (the night before) = PMS
PMS will be there for one week, sometimes two. The longer it is, the worse it is. Because I'll get really fat and I'll piss everyone around me off by my attitude. haha!
Poor Woody, kena frightened by me last night. hahahahhah! Sorry lar.. =)
I can't get into this website to look for Indonesian authentication letter for the certs. Tsk. Like that how I work?! grrr.
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I realised when I give up on something, as in really give up, I keep quiet. I stop ranting and raving anymore. No wonder people who really commit suicides, commit quietly. Those who keep saying they wanna die, have no guts to die.
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I wanted to so tell you that life won't be just like the cycle you said because there's a God. We have a reason to live. I didn't wanna say directly to you, because I didn't wanna pressure you. I say it here, at least you don't have to reply me. right? =)
I hold on to the message that you told me you'd come back, I will hold on to it for as long as I can. Till the day you prove me otherwise. Of cos I hope the day won't come.
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And for another you, when you say you should let go, stop doing things that'll make u hold on. Now I still rant, be thankful. In this state of mine, the people I bother about, I can count with one hand. What you preach to your friends, do so for yourself too. Everyone can be sad, but how long you wanna sit in this pool of sadness, it's all up to you.
Don't waste your time on something you know will make you feel worse if things are gonna go your way. You told me, it's just the dependency you're clinging on to. It's time you be more independent.
I'll blog more when I have the time. =)
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